Can I just say that it’s never a good idea to open Pandora’s Box on a Sunday afternoon? And by ‘opening Pandora’s Box’, I mean opening that little box in your mind that contains all of the things that cause pain, all of the things you’ve filed away that you no longer look at, and the most painful things that you choose never to look at again. Yeah, that’s what I opened yesterday afternoon. And it caused not one, but two panic attacks.
I’ve struggled all of my life with various anxiety diagnoses, but recently they have lumped all of the individual diagnoses into one large diagnosis that simply states ‘anxiety’. So, because of my ‘anxiety’ (made up of several smaller diagnoses), I tend to have many panic attacks, although I haven’t had one for a very long time. I used to have them everyday, but I thought I’d gotten a handle on them…until yesterday.
Like I said: never a good idea to open Pandora’s Box. At least, that’s what I call it. It’s just one of those things that I don’t usually talk about. In fact, my anxiety issues embarrass me quite a lot. Nobody around me quite understands my anxiety. So, I tend to hide it. But one of the more prevalent issues is social anxiety. That’s usually why I just like to stay here in my bat cave and work on stories and write in the dark in the middle of the night here on my desktop.
But I digress…once again.
I’ve never really felt comfortable sharing personal issues, mainly because I’m usually called an ‘attention-seeker’ by those around me, and also because I just don’t like to burden people with them.
What about you? Have you ever opened your own Pandora’s Box and not been able to close it? Or do you even struggle with having an internal Pandora’s Box?
Let me know in the comments below.