I find myself to be a wanderer, and by that, I mean that I love to go places, I love to question things and the world, and I love to find places I never knew existed. Sadly, though, lately I haven’t been able to wander, what with taking care of my mom, brother, and myself. But I do like to think of myself as a wandering ghost, a nomad.
As much as I love my home here where I live, I find myself wanting a more nomadic life. If my health and finances permitted it (and I really hope they do in the future), I would love to be someone who travels the world on foot and by car, never really staying in one place for very long. Not a tourist, and definitely not a native. But a wanderer, a nomad who observes the world around them and never stays for longer than necessary.
I’ve always wanted to do this. Perhaps I should start making a bucket list. This would be at the top, or at least listed as one of the more important ones. And I love that quote from Lord of the Rings:
“Not all who wander are lost.”
Perhaps I am lost a little bit, and maybe that’s why I want to wander. I can’t really imagine myself settling down and staying in one place for very long. As I’ve said before, I want to be an entertainer, and with that, I want to tour and travel. This fits perfectly with my nomadic nature. It fits perfectly with my desire to always be in a new place every day or every other day.
I often hear others who have to travel say that it’s hard to wake up in a different place everyday. Perhaps I’m naïve, but I think it would be fantastic to do just that. In fact, I’ve done it before. I’ve traveled to other states before and I’ve been in hotels. Only, they haven’t really been that far from home. Despite that, however, I loved waking up in a hotel. I loved having breakfast somewhere other than home. I loved the idea of gift shops and post cards and little keychains with my name on it that I could hang on a key ring. And to this day, I still love those memories.
Perhaps I’m a wanderer at heart, and perhaps I will one day be able to live that nomadic lifestyle. All I know is that for now, I have to be where I’m needed. But if the opportunity were to arise, and the stars were to align to make it happen…I would never say ‘no’.