It’s interesting the way we perceive things, both similarly and differently from those around us, especially those we are related to such as parents and siblings. I would think that genetics would only go so far, but despite the fact that my mom and I share very different interests, there are a few things that we don’t talk about and then find later on that we both have a fascination/love for it. First off would be true crime. Specifically, serial killers. I have no idea what is wrong with me. I blame the genetics.
But it’s things like these that fascinate me in and of themselves. Why are we so alike our parents, even when we – and our parents – don’t even know it? Is it possible for cells that are related to truly carry such information from mother/father to child? Apparently. I’ve found that my love for metal and heavy rock music comes from my dad. It’s interesting, because I didn’t know him very well. There are a lot of other things that came from my dad as well, even though I was too young to know at the time. Some examples: my love of all things sci-fi, fantasy, and aliens. My love of metal music and extreme makeup (KISS anyone??), my love for video games and technology. I even found out that I have applied to college (part time at a tuition-free online collage, thankfully) that I am getting the very same degree that my dad had and finished back in the 90’s. Back then, computer programming was just starting up. Now it’s in full-force. But having the same degree as him, having picked it without even knowing it in the first place…it makes me feel closer to him (he passed away in 2005).
I also remember when I was kid, he had tons of geodes in his office. I love rocks, crystals, gemstones, and especially geodes. I love anything that comes from the earth, and considering that my zodiac is a primarily earth sign, that would make sense. Though I don’t stake my entire personality on my zodiac.
It’s fun to draw these conclusions to find out just how we evolved into who we are as people. What parts of us were influenced by genetics and other people? What parts were grown entirely on our own? And what parts could possibly have nothing to do with either of those factors, but mysteriously link up so incredibly closely with something as ancient as star signs and constellations?
I will always have an intense fascination for space, and the world we live on. Each day, I learn more and more about myself, and the things that have shaped me and made me who I am today, right this very moment. I even got new glasses today, which is awesome because I can now see for the first time in five years! (My prescription was very outdated).
Though growing up not knowing my dad very well and later being very young when he died (I’d rather not go into the details; that is for another time), I find myself to be so much like my dad that it’s uncanny. The thing that’s so incredible to me is that they were things I never saw. My love for computers and technology. My intense frustration with math. My tendencies to throw logic out the window and fix it myself even when the obvious answer stands right in front of me… We all have our own way of doing things, but it’s interesting just how much family plays a role. I’ve even read true stories of children separated from parents at birth, never knowing in the first place, and they are incredibly like their birth parents. This shows that not everything is controlled by learning. Not all of it is controlled by environment. I even wonder how much of who we are is controlled by who we were hundreds of thousands of years ago.
But, that’s musing for another time.
In my wandering nomadic soul and my love for things that aren’t solid or concrete, making sense in this reality, I throw myself into the what-ifs and the things that I don’t fully understand in the attempt to understand them someday, perhaps even in the next life. It’s an incredible way to live.