Hello, my name is Saruta Valentine, my I suppose you might have already guessed that. Of course, that’s not my real name. What is my real name? Well…maybe one day I’ll reveal that. The truth is, I don’t like to talk about my real name. I don’t like to talk about who I am. But I tend to be transparent; people can read me like a book. Although I’m getting better at that mask.
It’s not as simple as putting on a mask, though. I don’t always want to wear a mask, but for now, I do. You can find me wearing a masquerade mask, four-foot eleven inches tall, with long hair and pale, porcelain-like skin. You can often find me in places like Barnes and Noble, the library, out in nature, or in the rain.
It’s taken me a long time to accept who I am. So…why am I telling you all of this? Well, because I’m simply figuring it out myself. I’m figuring out who I am each day as the days go on. I’m discovering things like poetry and other writing, music, storytelling, and more. I’m discovering things I never thought I would.
But I bet you’re wondering, ‘Saruta Valentine, what is this blog about?’ Well, I’m not exactly sure about that yet, but I will be soon enough. As the woman who calls herself Saruta Valentine, I want to be an entertainer; I want to be a singer, a performer. I also want to be a published author, an artist, and a list of other things. I find that I’m a very ambitious person. I’m one of those people who is a professional student in college, earning degree after degree because I simply want to learn, and there are a lot of things that you can’t learn outside of college. I’m one of those people that loves the smell of the rain, and loves the peace that the simple pleasure can bring within my hectic mind. I’m a person who loves cats and warm days off with a cup of hot herbal tea, snuggled up in a nook, writing in my journal or crocheting. I’m an introvert to say the least.
So, to be precise, I’m not exactly sure where I’m going. But I know where I want to end up: in the music industry, in the industry of publishing my own books and novels, and in the art scene, as well as creating video games. Those are the top four priorities.
But take it from a girl who has been through it all – be who you want to be before it’s too late. Be what you want to be before it’s too late. It almost was for me. I wouldn’t want the same for you. Life is so short and so complicated that it often clouds our minds and our judgements, making it so difficult to make a clear decision. But I want to disperse that fog. I want to throw away inhibitions and state the world as it is in the only way I know how: through writing. Through music. Through art. Through stories. Visuals and scenes in an artistic sense within a reality that I’ve created myself. That is the only way I can truly speak, because I do feel as if I don’t truly belong to this world. I’m too…different, too odd. I never was accepted in my childhood years by a lot of people, in my teenage years, or even now in my adult years. But that might be as simple as being around the wrong people. What really makes me feel like I don’t fit in is that I find I think differently than everyone around me.
But…I digress. I seem to have gotten off topic.
Thank you for reading this About section. Perhaps it will change as I change. But for now, it will stay as random and beautiful and filled with whimsical fantasies as I find myself. At least, that’s what I always try to do. I’m simply a girl, trying to navigate my way through this freakshow we call life. Usually, I’m losing.
But today…I’m winning.